So I'm going to have myself a little rant and rave here.
I consider myself an extremely non-judgemental person. I don't have the mentality to look at someone and judge them based on their looks or even what they say or do. I "judge" people over a long period of time based on their character, and that takes in a lot of factors on how a person acts, what a person says, that kind of stuff.
So here starts the rant: I just found out that my best friend got into a car accident yesterday morning. She's alright; the car got totaled though, and I just found out tonight. After getting over a little irritation that I was left out of the proverbial loop, she send me this one message.
>Please don't judge me.
.... now you all knowing powers of the internet, tell me what on earth would push me to judge her? BECAUSE I HAVE NO FREAKING CLUE. Me and this girl have been best friends for nigh about a year now, you think that she'd get who I am right? That I don't judge people. She got into an accident. Read that? AN ACCIDENT. Definition of accident? SHE DIDN'T FREAKING MEAN IT.
I'm just a little upset because she just doesn't seem to get how I work. And this isn't the first time that she's asked me "not to judge her," and honestly, it's starting to get a little grating. Because here I am, shocked that first of all, she was in an accident and I had NO FUCKING CLUE; second, by the sounds of it, she's lucky to be alive and in as good of shape as she is; third, I'm like crying at work because I could have lost my best friend and again, I had no idea that any of this was going on. No text message, no phone call, nothin'! And the status updates from the last day and a half make a lot more sense now that I know what the hell was going on!
fffffffffffff so yeah, crying over that, and she lands that line on me. That hurt a lot. That seriously gets into my heart and causes me pain, because I can't help feeling that maybe something I've said or done has made her feel that I would judge her (but I don't freaking know what). And it just...... DAMMIT.
Oh, and the hormonal rage that my uterus is currently putting me through doesn't help much -_-